Sharing the music I create is one of the more legitimate reasons I started this blog. To kick it off I am sharing something I wrote years back for my own momma. One day, I was thinking of all the amazing things my mom has done for me.
To this day, I’m not sure my mom really gets me but that has never seemed to matter to her. She has always given to me selflessly, tirelessly, effortlessly…I wanted her to know that even if I act like a jerk, even if I disappear for a while or even if I simply don’t say much that I love her dearly, I’m doing okay in life and I fear the day I will be forced to live without her.
This one’s for all the mommas. Your own. Your ex’s. Your best friend’s. All of them.
Mom,
I love you so much
I want you to feel special
even when I’m not around
I’m sorry
When I treat you bad
Pretending that I’m mad
When I’m really rather sad
What you don’t know (things I should have said…)
is that my life
turned out alright
I’m happy, I love you.
Mom,
don’t worry so much
Yes I’m eating fine
see I even packed a lunch
I’m sorry when I see you cry
Life is always tough
when your daddy drinks too much
What you don’t know (hear my voice instead…)
is that my life
turned out alright
I’m happy, I love you.
I can’t stand to think
that nothing really lasts forever
It woke me from my sleep
It scares me…
Don’t go
my life
can’t know
how to be alone
Somehow
please know
I’d do it all again…
somehow…
You’ve done
so much
by now
it’s got to be enough
and still
when I see you smile
there you go again…you give me everything
